I woke up in the middle of the night on Thursday, April 13, 2017 and could not go back to sleep. I found myself being frustrated and feeling a bit sorry for myself as I really like my sleep. I began to think about the next day’s calendar and realized that Friday was Good Friday. (I still don’t know how that name came about. There doesn’t appear to be any real consensus but it just seems to be inappropriately titled.)
As I began to think about what all took place on that day, I had the thought “I wonder if Jesus slept on the night before he was to be crucified?” Very quickly my self-pitying thoughts rushed away. I did go back to sleep but it took a while as I lay there wondering how Jesus felt on that night.
As I moved through my Friday the thoughts of the night before would not go away. I went through the day much more in tune with God and I sensed him working in my thoughts and interactions all day.
The thought or words that I kept hearing was “Be Grateful.” In my self-centered way of thinking I immediately began to thank God for my family, my job, my friends, my church, etc. (I am very grateful for those things.) But I almost stopped in my tracks while running that morning when I connected the dots. (Please keep in mind I have a degree in PE so I am a bit of a slow learner:) I realized God wanted me to be grateful for what Jesus did for me on that Friday. Be grateful that my sins could be forgiven even though I don’t deserve it. Be grateful that no more sacrifices are needed.
It was a moment of renewal. A renewal of my understanding of the love that Jesus has for me.
I am grateful to you Jesus for what you did for me on that cross.